Random Diary Enteries.

[Kate Beckinsale]

I'm actually glad I did well in this last HOH challenge. Even if I didn't win it was so close that I felt like my efforts in making it as random as possible really helped out. I also don't think I'm ready to be HOH yet. I'm trying my hardest NOT to make enemies but ugh the fucking attitude some of these girls have is just driving me up the wall.

Britney bitched about not being on the A-List last week, now Lindsay is. I'm sorry but it's a tad on the ballsy side to announce you feel entitled in some way shape or form. Lindsay is digging her own grave. None of the people I talk to can stand her attitude. Christie still hasn't spoken to anyone, and I honestly think that's her strategy. She's not going to talk to anyone and see how far she goes.

I don't know what anyone is thinking. No one is ever around!!! I feel like I'm being kept out of the loop but when I finally talk to someone they say they're feeling the same way.

Frankly I'm getting a headache. I love the challenges though so I'll just pour all my efforts into those.

I'm not happy about Nicki asking Bradley to replace her on the A-List with me. I really don't feel that's necessary and I don't want to throw pressure onto the HOH like that. That's the downfall about being the HOH the pressure hits you like a ton of bricks.

[Kate Beckinsale]

January 10th 2011

I don't know what to say about Bradley switching me to the A-List. I didn't talk to him at all last night because I knew everyone else was. I was hoping to catch him online today so I can at least make him feel better about the decision he makes. I heard he's having a problem with that. He doesn't want to piss anyone off or make enemies. When really this is all part of the game.

You know. If I could take Lindsay outback and beat her until she realizes this game doesn't revolve around her, I would. I hope he nominates her after she put herself on the A-List. LOL. To me, it's really not that big of a deal. Maybe at some point in the game it will be but not right now. I think she should have waited. Some of these moves people are making are DUMB. I can tell they're not as seasoned players as I thought they were.

Anyhow, hopefully I can do a lot better in this next Reward Challenge, and then again with Veto.

More later...

[Kate Beckinsale]

I often wonder if I irritate you guys with how many entries I have here in my DR. I post all the time, daily...sometimes twice a day. Hmmm...

[Kate Beckinsale]

I'm so glad I was able to step up and win a challenge. Whether it be Veto, HOH, even the Reward challenges. The girls really need to step up their game if they want to last. It's a rumor that some of the guys are making this game a battle of the sexes.


I'm not as pissed off at Brad as Adam is for breaking the deal. I had a hunch that was going to happen because he jumped on the deal so quickly, and to be honest I only went through with it because I'm trying to figure out who is more loyal to who, or find an alliance somewhere. I am pretty sure there's already one out there so I did this more to benefit myself rather than do what Adam or Bradley wanted me to.

I'm starting to not trust anyone but that could work to my advantage.

I wish I had more to say because usually my diary entries are long but I'm just so tired.

[Kate Beckinsale]

It's been a while since I left a good long diary entry so I figure since I'm waiting to start my HOH 3 @ midnight my time, which is in 49 minutes I may as well leave a good diary entry.

I'm hoping I really kick some ass for this HoH. Endurance challenges used to be my thing. Only now I think I'm getting much older and a lot more tired as the years go by but we're going to give it my all and do the best I KNOW I can do.

I have to stop listening to Adam. I think he has it in his mind that he has me wrapped around his finger and I'll do what ever wants since he was the one who suggested I use my veto. I really shouldn't have done that, however in the end it helped me see some things that I didn't before.

I had a hunch that some of the guys were teaming up to take out the females. I suppose this next HOH will reveal that more if another guy wins but I'm hoping one of the girls rock out this challenge and take home the win. I already know who I'm going to nominate if I do win being that is one of the things we have to know before we conclude the allotted 24 hours.

I still feel kind of left out of the loop. To be honest though I think it's mine own doing as to why I'm feeling that way. I really had no idea some of these people knew each other and I walked into the game knowing not one single cast member. Me, personally, I prefer it that way. None of these people have any idea of what I am capable of. I'm actually a hardcore villain on some of the other sites I've played on. I think I've made a few cry and quit but I wanted to stop playing like that for a while or get to the point where I'm only like that when it's necessary. Now I'm to a point where it's expected of me on those other sites. Blah, boring. It's no fun to ALWAYS be the villain.

Anyhow. I'm not sure how to work this game strategically yet. I'm trying to find out who doesn't like who and who trust who, and then once I find that out you break up the bonded pairs and use the old game drama against the others. I really need to start doing some more digging.

If I can pull off a HOH win then that would be awesome because I know people are thinking my strikes are going to get me out. I wish there was a way I could get at least one taken off. Oh well. it's really my own fault . It's a damn good thing this is the only game I'm playing right now. I can keep my eyes in one direction.

[Kate Beckinsale]

I haven't posted in here for a bit but I've been extremely ill. I'm going to catch up with the game and come back to do one of my long entries.

[Kate Beckinsale]

I understand that it's pretty irrelevant as to what's been going on with me but it isn't your normal "I have the flu, I have a cold" kind of illness. It's something serious enough that large doses of pain medication and steroids just to keep me comfortable. I can't simply get up and do my dishes without being in so much pain after. I'm in the process of getting a lot of test done so hopefully they figure it out and I'm not in pain anymore.


I really like how this game is going so far. I find myself in a the middle of a lot of things but behind the scenes it's kind of funny.

You have Sandra who seems like she's PMS'ing all the time. I've only spoken to Lindsay a few times but usually she's being an undercover smart ass when I do talk to her so it's not worth my time.

Britney and Dianna are sweethearts, I talk to Dianna more than I talk to Britney and Dianna proposed an alliance with myself, Nicki, and Adam but I think she's going to come after me at some point so I have to take her out before she takes me out.

Adam and I are still the closest, at least in my eyes. He's my closest ally. Adam and I originally made the alliance with Bradley and Johnny so I would assume we're going to be more loyal to them. I'm not sure though. I think I'm going to take Nicki, Johnny, Bradley and Britney to get out Dianna before she does me. We'll just have to see.

I'm glad my HOH reign is over being how stressful it was. I'm glad that I won something as well because it shows I'm here to play not just ride others.

I'm also glad Drew one this HOH because people were talking about taking him out this round since he's been inactive so it's always a good "in your face" kind of win when something like that happens. It really does keep the rest of us on our toes.

I keep trying these stupid safes although most have been opened already but what if I keep trying and don't get anything do the host know that I tried? Hmmm.

[Kate Beckinsale]

The day I'm nominated. I think I actually tried to contact a few and asked to be nominated. Mostly because I feel safe - too confident is a killer sometimes, and because of how sick I've been. I really don't know if I can give the game 100%.

That worries me. However, I'm still trying. It's the only thing I come online for lately is the game. I love the game itself and the effort the host have put into it. I've been around a long time so I know a good game from a bad one.

Drew is right, I have never spoken to him but he was always online and I think I tried once and didn't get anything but I'm not going to go all out and say that as to make another scene.

Sandra is hypocrite and it just ugh, bugs me because she also tries to act like the messiah of all ORGs. Saying my move to get out a good player was a bad move. WTF. How many games has she played? I'm used to cutthroat players and if you're winning challenges and making strong allies you're out. That's the way this game is supposed to be played in my opinion but apparently not in hers. She has her own philosophy. Of course her game play disagrees with mine so therefore we clash.

Most people are under the impression that Adam and I are pretty tight. We're just friendly mostly. WE rarely talk about the game. We say a few things here and there about it but nothing hardcore and that's how I like it.

It's not an obsession for me to constantly have the game going through my head even while the game is going on. It makes it less fun, personally.

Apparently that's different for everyone because Lindsay and Sandra are saying things that are so far fetched it's beyond real. Like I'm some mastermind. I certainly can't help that I don't come off as a complete idiot. It's not my style. I respect Lindsay for the fact that she's won some reward challenges but put your money where your mouth is and win some challenges where they count the most.

Right now, I'm pretty sure I may be out. I think a few have been lying to me from the beginning and it won't surprise me if I do go.

[Kate Beckinsale]

That last statement totally contradicts what I said in the beginning but the more you think about it the more you stress. Proven fact. I'm not thinking about it after this until I see some worth while people online.

[Kate Beckinsale]

I love how NO one is talking to me. That's a pretty bad sign.


Now that people are talking I'm over here trying to save myself while my head is pounding, my fingers are numb and I want to throw up. I'm doing it for my allies though. If I get voted out they're down a strong ally and I really don't want that.

[Kate Beckinsale]

January 28th, 2011

Thankfully I'm here for another round. I really didn't know how the vote was going to come out and I try not to assume anything. I just do what I can to stay; by talking to people, making deals if necessary and settling petty differences. Generally it pays off unless I'm a prime target.

I know Britney is upset with a few people for not keeping her but there's not a whole lot I can do about that. I have to do what I can for myself and my allies and she never officially was an ally of mine. I just thought she was a really nice girl.

I'm pretty excited about moving forward. Time to put in 110% and see if I can get the job done. I've already proved that I can win challenges I just have to keep that up.

At this point I know I can trust everyone that I've spoken to. Which is a good place to be as I don't think they trust each other as much. That puts me a perfect position. Lets see where I can go with it and what I can do.

I'm feeling better as well so that helps a lot in the grand scheme of things.

[Kate Beckinsale]

It's been a while since I've had a decent DR entry and I think now is as good of a time as any.

For some odd reason I feel like I've missed out on a lot due to just missing one POV competition. I haven't talked to my housemates as much and I really need to. This is the most crucial time for keeping in contact with them, especially my allies.

I don't remember if I've gone into detail here in the Diary Room about Bradley not being in the game anymore. I am not really interested in knowing, well I take that back, I am interested in knowing why he has been removed from the game but I'm not the type of person to ask questions. I just feel cheated being he was one of my closest allies. I will be honest, it has hurt my game and although he may have done something wrong it effects the rest of the house.

I have some mixed feelings about the way this last HOH, POV and now eviction is going. Basically I feel like our team handed Adam the win. Then for him to win POV. Depending on the results of the eviction .... I may have to rethink the alliance between Adam and myself.

I've been lucky enough to stay out of the drama lately so I'm hoping I can sneak back into the game and kick some ass.