Round Three: Hell Week

[Sean Hayes]

ive appropriately named this week HELL WEEK [/color] only after HoH results were posted.


i feel i gave my best, i probably could have worked at it more, but it was my weekend off and I wanted to also be well rested/catch up on sleep I was missing, so apparently my pillow won out over the competition. I also knew quite a few people worked at it longer than I did.

Of the houseguests, there were two people I was wary about winning. That would be Kate and Adam. Ironically, they're both my bedroom-mates.

well...as it turns out, of course they're in the top 3 for running for HoH....and Kate wins.


which i was okay with when i saw results.

until i realized she switched me from A-list to D-list.

im sorry bitch....did i do something i dont know about?


switch to Nomination Ceremony, and wow, no shock there, I'm also on the block.

but at the same time i was angered. I did nothing wrong to her and im a roommate, magically tho, i called the nomination chair my home til pre-veto.

so i had messaged Kate to see where she stood:


Hey Kate,


I'm not sure what your accusations were during nomination ceremony, but i atleast feel you owe me a justification for the "you are doing some things lately that arent supporting your "you have my back" statement.


honestly Kate, you and i havent talked much since day 1. I thought since we were in the same bedroom that it was kind of an unwritten thing that we wouldnt put eachother up.

you werent even in my thoughts to put up, and it's clear that's not the same vice versa.

and putting me up against someone who's inactive is just a slap in the face and obviously she's up as a pawn.

im really not trying to take this to heart, but it sucks. to think someone has your back and then you say that i dont have yours?

when we've barely talked? so how could i NOT have your back?


if this is about the orchestrations to boot Mike last week that i went up against, i only made justifications for him becuase i thought it was ridiculous that he was being put on the block for simply winning a "veto prize" that could have been something so simple as a "move up to the a-list".....(as i suspect this is why im nominated)


i really wish that you had just said something to me sooner about this than putting me up on the block.


and this isnt a personal attack against you,

if it seems that way, i apologize, i had a really rough night and i come home to this. just the way the cookie crumbles i guess.

-sean.
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but heard nothing, and i was getting impatient, so i messaged her online, and she was there!

me: are you there?
kate: I am.
me: im assuming since you're on your phone, you didnt get to read the PM i sent you on the boards.
kate: I read it this morning.
me: do you have intentions to reply?
3:58 PM
Kate: Well I'm not going to reply there but I think what really worried me was the paparrazi challenge.
me: what worried you?
Kate: You were so quick to hand the move up 2 to Lindsay without mentioning it to me and we are supposed to be allies.
-So it made me wonder where you really stood with me as an ally.
-You never talk to me either.
-I know it goes both ways but I've tried talking to you and I would sometimes go without a reply.
4:08 PM
me: thats not true? ive always replied to you Kate. always. I apologize if there've been times where i havent, but I usually reply to ALL of my messages here.
-as to the move up 2, it wasnt that i didnt even consider you, but rather that Lindsay posted the most amount of pictures and put WAY more of an effort in than any of us.
-if i hadnt awarded her the prize, im pretty sure people would have been more angry at me for NOT recognizing her efforts.
-that didnt mean i didnt have your back, but i can understand what you're saying that i DIDNT help my "ally" out there.
-i dont think that deserves me sitting where i am right now.
-you're entitled to your opinion tho, and im not knocking your reign as HoH. i just feel my place on the nomination seat isnt really justified. (again, i guess anyone would think that if they're sitting where im at now)
kate: Perhaps you're right, but I really don't have any valid reasons to nominate anyone else. I really didn't just want throw up some random person that hasn't given me a reason to maybe consider nominating them.
me:so someone from your same bedroom deserves to be sitting where i am? idk, it just made me re-think my whole thoughts on the room situation.
-and it hurts.
-because i feel i didnt do anything wrong TO you Kate. and i will apologize up and down if you felt i have wronged you.
-im not trying to take this personally, and i understand it's just a game, and yes, we're pre-veto.
-i just wanted to hear YOUR side of the story.
-and i wish you had said something sooner.
kate: That's the mistake I made was not saying something sooner. -You have to admit that these nominations weren't easy at all.
-I'll make you a deal. Because I think this was just a total misunderstanding.
me: fair enough, but i think i would have nominated someone alittle less active than i.
kate: I perhaps I win veto, I'll take you down and put someone else up.
me: thats fair enough.
-and i would greatly appreciate it.
-because ill be honest, you or adam would have been the last on my list to nominate.
Kate: If you win or someone else takes you down, who were thinking of nominating?
me: my original nominations, had i won HoH were Drew and Dianna.
simply because they're the people ive talked to least.
-im not sure what your relationship with Drew is.
-and i think they're the least inactive.
kate: I really haven't spoken to him at all. Like a hi how are you.
thats about it for me.
me: i feel like he's unable to hold conversation sometimes.
-like at all.
-other than a "hey, how are you?"
kate: Do you think it's his intelligence level or that he feels like he doesn't need to socialize
-because I think there are some in the house that already have an alliance and are too comfortable.
-Like they don't have to worry about things.
me: i dont mean to be rude and judge a book by its cover but i think it might be his intelligence.
-and the fact that he's 19.
kate: There's a few others that are really young.
-I'm OLD compared to most of the cast.
me: haha. i think that makes two of us, we may be around the same age.

um excuse me.... WHAT?!?![/color][/size]

i somehow, in that small amount of talk, convinced her that i dont deserve to be on the block and she agreed to take me down.

thats an epic win.

i really dont feel that i have a way with words, i just think that im showing people from another perspective about their thoughts and reasons why they're not always justified.


so at this time, I have no hard feelings for her. and i partly understand her reasoning for nominating me, but i think she could have easily put up ANYONE else in my place for this. womp womp.


also, if nothing fares out to my favor for Veto....i think i have the numbers to keep me in the house. ...i hope?

i really DONT want to be the third person evicted from this house over people who are FAR more inactive than i.


here's to hoping. still.
xoxo. [/color]

[Sean Hayes]

waiting..........[/size][/color]


is not one of my easier tasks.

so of course veto is posted and i was all excited and wanted to finish it right away.

except im a failure at math. [/size]


atleast when it's put in terms like that, and i know im being timed. lol.


so i got 14 minutes or something. and i knew other people would complete it much sooner than me.

and then i also failed at finding the REAL lucy liu's birthday.
epic.

in my defense, it was the game we were playing...so...i figured we were talking about the one here. haha. oh well.

anyway...


Adam wins veto. [/color][/size]

also another bad timing i believe.
i mean, like i said in the last, tho they're my room-mates..im not sure how much i can trust them because of the little communication we do share when we're online.

i know i wouldnt put them on the block..(not yet anyway)..but im not so sure the plan to get me off the block is gonna be orchestrated either..

i guess we'll have to wait and see.

that seems to be the consensus during hell week...waiting....


i thought for sure Adam would post his ceremony right away last night...and yet it still hasnt been posted.

here's to hoping no one else becomes inactive.

also...they're calling for more snow[/color] tonight...which totally ruins my plans for my only night off this week.
(but i bet you school related HC'ers are excited...or maybe not if it doesnt increase your paychecks )

boo to you mother nature.


let's see what tonight brings.
as i keep waiting..


xoxo.[/color]

[RuPaul]

Yeah, you know mama likes the MO-ney! SO here's hoping maybe a 2hr delay

[Sean Hayes]

are you fucking kidding me?[/size][/color]


...im still on the block.


because Dianna apologized to Adam for being inactive and he veto'd her? simply because i didnt ask him to use it on me?


so this is the polite message i left him:

me: im sorry that i didnt kiss your ass and beg you to use the PoV on me Adam, i thought for sure that you'd atleast have my back the same as i would have yours being "roommates" but i see that it doesnt really work like that. ill be happy to know that karma will have its turn on you. i did NOTHING to you and this is the way that i get treated. i see where your allies stand.



and i presume that he walked away from his computer or somethign because i've gotten no reply.

but i think it's complete and utter bullshit.

that my roommates shafted me...not once, but twice this week.

and it's no shaft that Sean enjoys (if you know what i mean)



but apparently, like i said, Adam is "afk" as i was told by Bradley..


which i conveniently learned was "away from keyboard"[/size][/color]

haha. good acronym.


also, i learned from Bradley earlier that Mike has opened chest #2. and i havent heard anything about it yet, tho he's been sharing everything else to me...so im gonna see if i can pry it out of him and i want to see if he'll be honest about it.


this game is getting really confusing. and as to where my allies stand and such.

im hoping things turn around.

hell week has been.......HELL.[/color]

let's see what happens with votes. ugh ugh ugh.


xoxo.[/color]

[Sean Hayes]

and now things have changed again..[/size][/color]


Kate replaces Dianna with Mike.

because Mike opened a chest, and now he's considered a threat.

because Bradley also opened the same chest and knows what the power is, and told Kate because "she's head of household"..

...well...now Mike's on the block, and somehow he's getting votes to stay over me.

and now it's rifting my trust with Mike.

and he may not have to use his power.

which essentially just blows up in Kate's face,
and I'M the one paying for all of this..



YAY!!!![/size][/color]
....not.


back to the waiting game....


Dianna says she wants to get to know me. so i may have her vote.

both Sandra and Lindsay told me im not getting their votes.

i know Bradley wants to keep me, and i THINK Adam wants me out, but with my flip-out on him...he may change his mind..

Johnny, i hope has my back. but lord only knows what kind of deal Mike will strike to keep himself in the game.

and....Nicki? i neverrrrrr know with nicki.


this whole week just SUCKS[/size] in my book.


nominated, not pulled off the block, and a friend goes up against me, and then campaigns against me! WOO! can this week get any better?


hell week continues. [/color]

[Sean Hayes]

this week is just getting to be wayy too much.

i never thought i would take a game so seriously, as i sit here and sulk, and almost cry.

over getting yelled at for a HUGE miscommunication when i expected things were going my way.


Mike is now campaigning against me...after being close in the house up until this point.


because he wants to keep his prize, and hope he has votes against me, rather than having to use his power this early.


so he's supposedly not using his power after i STUCK MY FUCKING NECK OUT FOR HIM LAST WEEK and got him off the block, this is the bullshit im getting for it.

some kind of "friend" he is.

and then i start to get screamed at by Kate.

kate: Okay, you're pissing me off
me: i am?
-what did i do?
Kate: Yes.
-You are exaggerating our conversations.
me: who have i exaggerated to?
kate: I told you that drew was ONE of my options not that I was for sure nominating him.
-and I've had three people tell me that I told you I was nominating him
me: ive said that if mike comes off the block that you said about Drew.
-because you didnt mention anyone else to me who was an option.
and you specifically said to me that he would be a bigger threat that i would have votes to stay.
-ive not TRIED to elaborate anything.
-i swear this is why i hate these games, im not over-exaggerating anything and making oyu sound like a bad person Kate.
Kate: My point is this. I CAN'T TRUST YOU
-AT ALL
me: WHY?
-what did i do wrong?
Kate: You go around telling other people what I tell you.
-You can't keep your mouth shut.
me: i didnt know that i had to keep my mouth shut on an altered plan should Mike use his power, that everyone else knew about?
Kate: No, our conversations. The ones about me seeing what I can to get you off the block after POV.
-You telling people that I was going to put Drew up if Mike uses his power.
me: the only person ive said anything about the getting me off the block was Adam, who i thought YOU and ADAM were super close.
Kate: To me that doesn't matter. When I have conversatios with people it doesn't mean he needs to know everything.
-Yes, him and I are close.
me: i didnt say he needed to know everything Kate, but i thought he had already known those things that i was telling him.
-because i thought you and he had already discussed that stuff.
-obviously this is all a huge miscommunication that again puts me on the short end of the stick.
Kate: Why do you keep putting yourself there.
-Things may not go anyone's way
-in this vote
me: because now im gonna be a target because you cant trust me and mike's looking like the better option to keep over me.
-because i did something that i knew nothing about.
-assuming that you and adam are closer than you really are.


and i apologized. i mean...it's all a huge misunderstanding for the most part, and people talking back and forth and words being said that may not have been said, and people taking things out of context.



and yet, im STILL [/size] the one paying for all of this.

i cant understand.

let me just say that if im evicted tomorrow, there will be some words spoken.

im gonna send Brit a PM, and hope that i can keep her vote.

as of now these are the votes i think i have to keep me IN the game.

Adam,
Bradley,
Brit,
Dianna,
Johnny,
Nicki


or so i hope. unless mike is trying to strike deals left and right...


the week of drama that has occurred, is enough for the rest of this game. seriously.[/u]
and i apologize about my foul mouth, but this week has frustrated me.

the waiting continues...


xoxo.[/color]