Week 7

[Johnny Knoxville]

VICTORY!

I got my way for once! I GOT MY OWN DAMN WAY! It has been way too long since that happened. Honestly, before the results were posted I was the most nervous I have ever been in an ORG. I was incredibly afraid that it was going to blow up in my face, just like this other decision I made:

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I don't know how to describe how happy I am. I am elated, pumped, excited and proud. SO FUCKING HAPPY. I was SO afraid that the plan to save Lindsay would blow up in my face. And I still think it will, kind of. But, I pulled it off! I managed to save Lindsay with the help of Nicki and some voting advantages. Also, I am pretty sure that I managed to blindside the majority of the house, which is icing on the cake.

This is the first thing I feel like I have 100% accomplished on my own in this game. I have only won one competition (which I worked with Adam on). I have gone with majority almost every damn vote, and I have not got almost any eviction result that I wanted. To finally feel like a winner again feels so good.

Even if I lose this incoming week, I will know that I didn't cop out. Throughout this entire game I was making decisions that I didn't want to make. I felt like a weak pathetic player. This week, I didn't let that happen. I took my destiny into my own hands, and I will either leave soon, or move into endgame knowing I made at least one bold move.

[Johnny Knoxville]

I would like to take the time to point out how foolish I feel about the fight I had with Adam during the week of Sandra's eviction. I was mad that he helped Lindsay with the veto, and then I full out save her with my double vote. I am a hypocrite .

But apparently, he isn't pissed? Hopefully he is being honest with me, but if not I understand why he would want to keep his frustrations in the DR.

[Johnny Knoxville]

I am going to try and update my thoughts on the end of this week tomorrow.

[Johnny Knoxville]

Even though its only been a few days, this all seems so long ago. I wish I had time to write this stuff as it happened, but I was just too busy. So this is all written in hindsight.

First of all I LOVED the challenge you set up. At first when I saw it I was not too excited. It looked like a lot of work and I had a busy weekend ahead of me already, and I knew that finding a camera would be a royal pain in the ass. But then I started looking closer at the challenge and I realized it wasn't nearly as bad as I thought it was, and that it was actually pretty fun.

Despite the fact that I didn't win it (second AGAIN, ugh) I did have a blast doing it. I hope you don't let all the bitching about people having to show their face deter you from running this challenge in the future. Those people are pansies. They don't deserve to win if they don't have the confidence to put themselves out there.

Anyways, after eating 5 hotdogs, standing on my foot for 2 min, and doing some good ol' long division we got results. And Sean and Drew did the worst. But then we found out that Kate didn't even bother to submit anything and she was promptly given the boot.

When Kate was evicted for her third strike, I was pretty pumped about it. Kate was someone who I talked to in the beginning, but as the game progressed, our communication just stopped. She is nice enough, but it was always surface level conversations with her. Also, I was sure that I must have pissed her off with my decision to keep Lindsay, so her leaving was even better for me in that regard.

If the nominations had stayed as Drew vs Sean, I would have fought very hard for Sean to stay. I don't think he would really be in that much danger regardless. But even if people were considering voting him out, I think I probably could have worked it for him to stay, because I had just saved Lindsay so she kinda owed me, and Nicki was voting based on who deserved it more.

Since she won the whole competition, Lindsay was the final 6 HoH and that was actually amazing for me. I was literally in no risk because I had JUST saved her, and she had her power that could cancel a veto competition. I was a little worried that she would nominate Sean beside Adam, but she chose to throw Drew up there instead and that worked out pretty nicely for me. I don't think I could have even evicted Adam if I wanted to, because each of us were deadset on keeping him.

This round was unique for me because it was the first time that I ever really trusted Lindsay. I am glad that I had the chance to get to know her, because it made me realize how judgmental I was with her early on and I won't make that mistake again in future ORGs.

It was also the last round that I could have used my power. Obviously, I decided not to. LOL at winning a power for the first time EVER in an ORG, and then deciding its not in my interest to use it. But to be honest, there was never an opportunity that would have made sense, and considering the penalty associated with losing the duel, it isn't just something you randomy use on a whim.

So yeah, this round worked out amazingly for me. But now that the last of the deadweight is gone (Dianna, Kate, and Drew are the people I see as being jury deadweight) the game will definitely intensify.